Ever since High School, maybe even before, I have always been a lover of art. Any kind of art spanning from writing to sculpting, singing and dancing, crafting or designing. I love expressing myself in a fun and unique way that can be perceived in so many different lights. A big part of my life when I graduated from High School was my poetry and lyrics.
I was going through a rough patch in life and my means of escaping, venting, or lifting myself up were written down or recorded. I spent awhile debating whether I wanted to share this delicate part of myself with the world because criticism from your peers and mentors can be devastating. I’m no poet, rapper, or singer song writer type, but writing has always been my number one anti-anxiety medication. Everyone has their own method of stress relief and mine usually is done with writing. I do have my occasional, maybe more frequent, venting sessions with my friends where I blow their heads off with my obnoxious amount of pent up frustrations that come spewing out of my mouth hole. Luckily they still love me and continue to be there for me, no matter the word vomit they must endure.
I’d like to start off with a few of my favorite pieces. Keep in mind when reading these that I was not in a good place in my life. I had big ups and even bigger downs. Some content may be sensitive or triggering to some and/or may be directed towards people in my life. I never mention anyone by name in my work and I will not be posting anything that would cause emotional pain to any individual person. Also, a lot of my work is unfinished. I would tend to start scribbling something down and then never come back to it. I didn’t want to add to any of my work because it represents who I was in those moments of my life and I admire that in a way.
Please enjoy.
Sirens
When they look at you what do you think they see?
Translucence as bright as the sea.
Trying to be set free,
then you look at me.
Writing’s Alright
All I want to do anymore is write.
Everyone’s got my feelings taking flight.
Am I going to be alright?
Words can’t describe the feeling, but its as close as it gets.
Sometimes I feel like if I just hold my breath,
close my eyes,
and count to three.
Just to figure out who I’m supposed to be,
then its back to reality.
The grass isn’t always greener on the other side,
you’ll see.
Careful What You Wish For
While you’re over here wishin’ you could be small and fit.
Some girls out here wish to be curvy and thick.
STOP!
Don’t define yourself,
let it affect your health.
Trying to reach your peak of wealth
with cards you’ll never be dealt.
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My sun rays seem to be turning gray, why does it feel like you’re so far away. Please, just explain to me this one thing. Where’s your heart and who are you trying to be?
All I see are clouds so hazy, at some point you should at least try and amaze me.
I want your full potential, just flowin’ through all those instrumentals.
Be my sunshine, the reason that’s made me go blind. Like its the end of our lives.
I’ve always loved the color of your eyes, open up to me and be who you wanna be while no one else can see.
I want you to be free.
You’re locked up so far away, the path of light you have gone astray.
But I will be your sunshine to guide you.
Please don’t make me your prey and I shall stay.
Doodle Bug
Doodle bug.
Vanilla scented lil’ hugs.
Where’s all the time go?
Slowly the work becomes worth
its slow burns and incense.
Find the new sense of innocence.
When I Was A Kid
Playin’ on jungle gyms and learning how to swim.
Back when everyone wanted to be my friend.
It’s a little bit funny, cause now all I do is try to make little money.
I remember how back in my day everyone use to say,
“Never grow up, stay a kid.”
But growin’ up’s exactly what I did.
A Midsummer Nights Dream
Worship me, make me feel more important than thee, A midsummer nights dream.
Feels like things are unfolding at their seams.
Relish in the time that we’ve spent caressed in each others flesh.
“Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged cupid painted blind.” (MND 1.1. 234-235)
I can feel this deep inside, without a clear thought you’ll start to lose your mind is what a life of love feels like this moment in time.
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Thought you was nice, but I’m just tryna turn blind men into Mr. Rights. Come on, thought we was compatible, thought our love was adaptable, could be I’m just crazy.
I can tell my visions turned a little hazy, got too much self doubting and pouting need someone that’s a little grounding.
Crazy to think it could be you, but your on all that if, when, and who.
Just get a clue.
Thinkin’ everyone’s nice, your gonna pay the price, but I thought you was nice.
I mean you got my attention, got me feelin’ this way again, playin’ with my head again.
Shit, I always fall for that dumbass trick. Just stop the record.
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Thank you all for taking the time to read some of my work. I’ve changed in so many ways since this time in my life when I wrote all of these pieces. This was just a tidbit of what I wrote in those few years. During that time I was in a relationship that was terrible for my mental health, I felt at odds with my family, and I had distanced myself from all my friends. My only means of escape were through writing. This was a double edge sword for me at the time though. The person I was with enjoyed writing and rapping and so this would cause a lot of turmoil between us. I had always loved writing, but it turned into a chore for me, in all honesty I haven’t written a single poem or verse since that time, but when I found all my work a few months ago it truly inspired me to start writing again.
If you would like to read more of my old work please reach out and let me know. I will be posting some new poems and writings that I have been working on since finding my old work. I will also be sharing more of my old work including short stories and other projects I pursued when I was younger.
Please keep in mind that this is my personal work and should not be copied or duplicated in anyway for anyone else’s self gain without my permission first.
Thank you!